Battling Feelings of Hopelessness 😔

*sigh*

Some days, I am my biggest cheerleader. I tell myself, “You can do it! You can run a mile! You’ve started a successful business, all on your own! You’ll travel the world, soon!” You can do ANYthing!”

Other days, I am my harshest critic. I suck. I’m not pretty enough, successful enough, unique enough to make a difference at all. I won’t ever realize my dreams of seeing the rest of the world. 🌎

Who else has been there? Surely I’m not the only one. Lately, I’ve found myself doing this annoying thing where I compare myself to other people. 🙄 They go on more vacations, they make six figures, their life is SO TOGETHER. I’m not going to lie, I got reaaallly pissed off yesterday when I heard on the radio that the “Cash Me Outside” Chick is making $100,000+, just for basically being a shitty person. And that’s what makes me depressed. Is our world really THAT messed up that we reward idiots, while other hardworking, NICE people have to scrape to even make it by?

I fell into the pit again today. I go back and forth between telling myself I don’t care and wanting to do something to change it. It’s an annoying side effect of our Share Everything Culture that we instantly feel this compulsion to just compare ourselves to other people. We measure our lives against theirs.

I’ve taken social media hiatuses too, to combat it, but I really don’t know what to do about the standards our world has…they probably won’t change anytime soon.

I’ve been trying to work on being positive, writing some more lately, running some(The adrenaline rush is nice, other times I want to die. 😂) and balancing all the various petsits I’ve got going on.

It’s hard when you feel like you’re just a speck in this…kind of crappy universe. It’s not all crappy. I’m not that depressed…I can pull myself out of it, I just have to remember to focus on myself and not compare. Tomorrow, I’m thinking about exploring some local areas and just…appreciating where I’m at, here and now. If I go on an adventure, I’ll be sure to post about it!

Sorry this post is kind of…blah inducing. I just wanted to throw my thoughts out there. What do you all think about the negative effects of social media? Do you find yourself comparing to other people even when you shouldn’t be?